letting go

I knew what i wanted..

Back when i was still in Uni, i used to lie to myself to feel better about not choosing the career path that i have passion on..
I tried to convince myself that i cant make a living out of my interest and accounting is what's best for me!
Giving the fact that this industry is all so commercialised in Malaysia, i'll be risking myself to lose that passion.. if i were to make it as my day job.. 
So keeping it as a hobby may be the best way to preserve my interest..............

Today,
An ex-colleague invited me to go sing k..
I then told him i will not be free and of course we end up chatting a little after that..

From one topic leading to another.. We actually talked about the requirement in getting ACCA membership..
I was in a total B.L.U.R..haha! And clearly i havent been putting any thoughts about it at all..
What's with me?!!! I havent decide anything at all..

But honestly speaking.... Im not interested....

It got me thinking.. Is it abit too wasted?
so much of hardwork getting myself to pass the exam and here i am..
letting go the chance of getting the membership while others is putting so much effort in achieving it..

I dont know whats best for me.. I mean i only have 1 life and i DO know what i want instead.. 

I want to take up make up courses!!
I want to learn how to draw~~
I always have a huge interest in photography..
I want to exploit my art talent.. to see if i have any!
I want to do all things i want..

Late?